I Scream, You Scream, We all Scream

When Mason was a baby, he would cry and it would never really get to me. He would cry in the car and I could just block it out, he would cry at night and I could just tune it out...all was good.

When Ben was born, I assumed this would be true...I mean, I handled the crying of Mason, how much different could it be?

I'm here to say................A HELL OF LOT DIFFERENT!!!!!!!!!!

When I am driving and Ben is crying, I can not tune it out, I am thinking about driving off the road. When Ben is crying at night, I am wondering if I could suffocate myself with the pillow.

There are several levels to the Ben cry. There is the simple whine that I can handle, but it's there, haunting me.
There is the next level where I my shoulders start to tense up quickly followed by my shoulders becoming really tense and all of a sudden I realize that my shoulders are touching my ears.
Then there is the final level where I start thinking about stabbing my inner ear with a pencil.

As you can tell, the crying is just awful. It's primal, aggressive and angry. He's is the sweetest baby, who laughs out loud, but when he does cry....oh man, it is just painful.


So to all those parents out there that live by " If it's not your child crying, it's not that bad" I call Bullshit!!!!!